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Greatest Thing You Will Ever Read. :]


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Sara

 

So selfish, so tempting, too selfish, half empty, and you? more pain, bid adieu, more rain, thank you, your strain, me too, inn sane, no breath, no list, not death, to not exist.


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First off it may be one of the worst things you ever read in reality.

It's not that good, it took me 5-10 minutes to write but it came out when my heart was racing, my adrenaline was pumping, and I was depressed as hell

But my overall IQ is 149... it means I see the average person less than the average person sees someone with borderline autism. Yes that broad of a difference. I also put more effort into this poem than any other piece of crap I've written. : P

 

Explaining Sara:
A lot of these lines can be taken into different contexts. Every two words have two meanings to it... just as gloomy though. I only explain both sides to one set of two.


So selfish, to kill one's self is extremely selfish... I never understood why until a friend of mine did. (2nd friend to do so)

But sometimes it's So tempting because in your mind the people you know are the selfish ones for forcing you to live.

However tempting it is, it's Too selfish I found out exactly at the time I needed her most. I didn't contact her to find this shit out.

I was a mess when I met Sara, told her some of what I was dealing with, why I had my glass is Half empty state of mind.

She was also dealing with depression and suicidal thoughts (and you?) the last thing I texted her was "wanted to make sure you're doing okay" she said "Oh, well sorta.." didn't call her... didn't text her... nothing. I just forgot about her.

I didn't reply for a year and a half, until I needed someone to talk to as I struggled with depression over a girl again, More pain. (and more to come... yes I know my tragic flaw)

Tried contacting Sara to get this other girl off my mind after a year and a half of forgetting that she told me she wasn't fucking ok, only to find out she killed herself at least 7 months ago.

Bid adieu and say goodbye to now 2 people I care about, the girl I loved that's getting married. And now an old friend...

I just got done crying that night over the girl I had hoped to end up marrying... self explanatory More rain

Thank you so much Sara, exactly what I fucking needed right now

You talked about Your strain.
Me too I've got a lot of shit going on as well, your problems were so fucking miniscule it wouldn't even phase me.
I'nn sane/Insane I've been hallucinating a bit... gas station is full before I open the door, empty after I do. But always say "I'm fine." "I'm ok." and what someone means when they say those things is "I have a clear state of mind" / (I'm sane) at this point people are asking me if I'm fine. I'm not... but if you met me irl you'd never know. And yes it's written incorrectly on purpose. Not only to let people choose whether it means insane or I'm sane. It's because it's leaning more towards insanity. And her insanity as well... it fits perfectly with the rhyme but it doesn't sit right. Ofc, because I didn't finish that part by rhyming "too" It's supposed to be off.

No breath I don't want to live.

No list I don't want to go to heaven nor hell

Not death I don't want to die

I simply long To not exist, the 2 words verses are sort of supposed to be like a reality. It ends with a 3 word verse to sort of show that what I want is never going to happen. One cannot choose to not have been born. Though it'd make ceasing to live a lot easier if you didn't have to hurt people by doing so, it's not reality.

You cannot choose To not exist when you kill yourself you're not just "erasing" your life because your life is in "ink" and you'll be hurting people for years to come because you couldn't put up with it. When you're ready to end your life it's almost surprisingly calm (unless ofc you're in the middle of bawling your eyes out) nothing matters because it all ends here. No it does NOT all end here, only you do. Not for anyone else... which brings us back the the beginning it's So selfish. "ooowww hidden meaning" honestly no. But it does sort of fit in nicely.


So selfish, so tempting, too selfish, half empty, and you? more pain, bid adieu, more rain, thank you, your strain, me too, inn sane, no breath, no list, not death, to not exist.


If I were to break down every little meaning of those 33 words and explain exactly what happened, my childhood, the abuse (which I can honestly say makes bootcamp look like pussy shit) well you'd end up with about 15-20 pages.

Half empty for example would take about 5 pages itself. However I believe it can be understood from a more basic concept given the general idea of the kind of person who says it's half empty. It's not meant to be turned into a 20 page bs, if you can get 2 sentences out of each 2 words then I believe you may understand it well enough. :]

 

 

I've decided to try not to kill myself... lol.


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First off it may be one of the worst things you ever read in reality.

It's not that good, it took me 5-10 minutes to write but it came out when my heart was racing, my adrenaline was pumping, and I was depressed as hell

But my overall IQ is 149... it means I see the average person less than the average person sees someone with borderline autism. Yes that broad of a difference. I also put more effort into this poem than any other piece of crap I've written. : P

 

Feelings is the basis not the form of poetry, unabashed emotion is never pretty to read about.

 

Next bragging about your supposed IQ means nothing, academic knowledge without wisdom and logic is worthless and if you're IQ is that high, you'd be an accredited MENSA member. Which I doubt you are. Besides all that IQ tests are rigorously considered flawed.


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Well I scored highest in the class in philosophy and logic o.o

I did get a B in drama fiction and poetry though.


I was high last night so... idk came here to delete whatever I wrote but I'll leave it up there for you to give a shit about : P

 

I don't even wanna look at that mess x.x


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Well I scored highest in the class in philosophy and logic o.o
I did get a B in drama fiction and poetry though.

Being the smartest of a group of idiots doesn't make you intelligent. Not looking to insult, it's just something you have to learn.
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Actually you were looking to insult lol

It's fine... but I'm curious how in a philosophy class is the room full of idiots when philosophy is considered the mother of all knowledge? Nothing can defy reason sweety, no parallel universe, no god, nothing can exist which defies reason. :/ So we use reason to its extent.


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Actually you were looking to insult lol
It's fine... but I'm curious how in a philosophy class is the room full of idiots when philosophy is considered the mother of all knowledge? Nothing can defy reason sweety, no parallel universe, no god, nothing can exist which defies reason. :/ So we use reason to its extent.

Oh right sorry because anyone who has ever studied philosophy is automatically knowledgeable. I sincerely didn't mean to insult you or your classmates, I was just trying to tell you that comparing yourself to a limited group of people will not tell you much about your own capabilities. Please don't call me sweety.
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Oh I have darlin, I was not born and raised in that classroom.

For example you'll come to the conclusion that I am insane when I tell you I know what needs to be done to begin the age of immortality on earth. But it'll happen in our lifetime :) assuming I don't die.


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Immortality is boring, Who'd want to live forever? it would remove the very importance of life itself if we were all immortal. I mean sure a thousand years of so might be fun, but forever?

 

I thought you were a student of philosophy?

 

Also it's a valid point, philosophy is nice, but it isn't going to cure disease and end world hunger, that is the domain of *ahem* SCCCCIIIIIIIIIIEEEEEEEEENCE! *lightening strike*

 

As the old saying goes: Those who can, do science, those who can't practice philosophy.


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Incorrect. I am bio premed major btw.

Philosophy could very well end world hunger as well as bring world peace, but I do not believe that can be done this early in our society without the help of science. Neurology is what I will specialize in... if I truly can offer the ability to live forever on this earth (assuming you do not die from other causes) then I would be the wealthiest and most powerful man to live.

I would only use this to incline others to think. Thought is the key to peace, not blind hope or faith.

 

My goal is not immortality however I can achieve it... it is knowledge and peace. And I will strive to achieve it with the help of immortality.


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Incorrect. I am bio premed major btw.

Philosophy could very well end world hunger as well as bring world peace, but I do not believe that can be done this early in our society without the help of science. Neurology is what I will specialize in... if I truly can offer the ability to live forever on this earth (assuming you do not die from other causes) then I would be the wealthiest and most powerful man to live.

I would only use this to incline others to think. Thought is the key to peace, not blind hope or faith.

 

My goal is not immortality however I can achieve it... it is knowledge and peace. And I will strive to achieve it with the help of immortality.

From the sounds of it your goal is only your own version of peace and using immortality to your own ends sounds suspiciously like one who would care to think themselves as a god.

 

If you're sure you can bestow endless life, by all means tell us how, We don't need specifics, just the general gist of it, lets see how your hypothesis holds up to scrutiny shall we?

I mean I consider myself a fairly intelligent person, so to you I must be what? Barely a Neanderthal in comparison? But you don't just spout important sounding words and phrases in order to appear dramatic and offer no substance behind them, and their are plenty of people on here smarter than I am. So if I'm seeing through your crap, well... I can't imagine how much this reeks of BS to those guys. So how about we see some substance to your claims.


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I don't feel like telling too many people... I just shared small pieces a couple.
If I have to be a "God" like icon to achieve peace in this world I will.


Peace is not to control anyone.

Lets talk about philosophy. What is happiness?
Happiness is believing what you possess is good. Whether it be knowledge, money, love, etc.

True happiness does not fade, because if you possess what you KNOW is good rather than what you believe to be good then the biproduct is always true happiness as in does not go away.

So what is the good? Not pleasure. Fuck a girl, fuck 2, 10,000, eventually it gets old and you cannot continue adding fuel to the flame. Pleasure is not the good...

The good is the source of unity in each person and as such must be one. If everyone sought it and used reason to its full extent then we would be and I quote "living heaven on earth now." we truly would be. No more immorality, no need for jails, no need for police, our only concern would be natural disasters and accidents.

Happiness never gets old... discovering that what you originally believed to be good was not as good as you thought or good at all is the misinterpretation. Again though, happiness is not the good, it is simply the result of obtaining the good and cannot be avoided even if one wanted to once obtaining the good.

 

And forgive me for not telling you any piece of the key to immortality, I seek the good but honesty is a virtue not the good itself. You cannot trust what may be an irrational being with the truth in the same way people didn't put a sign on their house saying "housing Jews" for Nazi's to see. The truth is not always a means to the good.

 

Anyway I'll be back later. :)


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HA! I knew you'd say that.


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Oh hells yeah buddy nice moves! Man I don't smoke pot but these last 2 weeks xD I'd be dead if I didn't have it.


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First off it may be one of the worst things you ever read in reality.

It's not that good, it took me 5-10 minutes to write but it came out when my heart was racing, my adrenaline was pumping, and I was depressed as hell

But my overall IQ is 149... it means I see the average person less than the average person sees someone with borderline autism. Yes that broad of a difference. I also put more effort into this poem than any other piece of crap I've written. : P

 

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Are you serious? You can not be justifying your writing with your pseudo intelligence and autism. That's just ridiculous. 

 

Also, the fact that this is the most effort you've ever put into a piece of writing is astounding. I'd hate to see your worst work. 


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It's ok, I have it all figured out.

 

They are a reasonably smart person among their peer group, probably not used to outside questioning, they are an anime addict, hence all the BS about immortality and the truth of happiness and they were high.

 

It all makes perfect sense now... This person is an absolute know-nothing asshole who can't face being called out on his/her bullshit and will instead redirect the question into a nonsensical paradox.


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EC has miscarriaged a new retard of disgusting proportions, I see.


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C'mon Mr. Zero. They're taking the piss out of ya. You haven't told them anything yet. Right? So tell them.
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I really don't care what they think though. I can tell the difference between intelligence and stupidity.

I'm not a christian however I have nothing but respect and admiration for Jesus. Whether he was delusional or not he was still one of the wisest humans to exist during his time. When you try to make stupid people smarter they just get angry at you. Even if you have completely respectful and good intentions. Jesus... Socrates... if Einstein specialized in the field of thought itself we would have executed him as well. Fortunately for him he was more interested in mathematics which society has accepted unlike philosophy and logic... a great amount of society even reject the very laws of reason. Society takes a man who attempts to incline their mental reasoning... and they kill him.

 

What do you want to know other than my goals though?

 

Want to talk about abortion?

Marijuana legalization?

Any sort of moral issue?

I won't give my opinion but I have the correct answer...


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