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[~Eyeliner&Cigarettes~]

Can people stop saying stuff like 'if you want to stop, then you will.'
There's a hell of a lot more to it than that.

[NicoleAgnetti]

hello ive never been a cutter so im not really sure how it feels to go through something like that but u should never blame urself or anything for doing it cause we all cope with things differently but i hope that people see that their are safer ways of coping hope ur doing better ThisSongSavedMyLife

[xxmidnightturmoilxx]

first off for those who cut because they think its fun or to fit in that's fucked up worse than cutting in itself.
my younger days weren't always happy... sexually abused when i was little not once but it went on for a number of years when something like this goes on for so long it can really warp a child's mind to the point were its like normal and he does something like this to someone when hes older makes me feel fucking sick, i could never tell my parents, years have went by gotten harder and harder to the point i don't think i will ever tell them.
didn't grow up rich not by any means the farthest back i can remember we didn't even live in a building at the time it was a tent at a camp ground in middle of nowhere times were a slice of bread was the single most exiting thing to happen to me.
my teen years were horrid we were always moving iv been in 10 different schools
i have never fit in anywhere i was and still am real shy was always being made fun of and picked on as a kid which made me angry and lash out at others the only ones who would befriend me were the real bad kids but that's only because they could use me and i let them my insecurities and longing to fit in got in the way this lead to a life of crime theft,vandalism,fighting,arson. heavy drinking, drug abuse, suicide attempts. i tend to distance my self from others because I am afraid of what they will think of me if they find out about my past i cant stand it. it tears away at me from the inside out like I am being eaten alive, you may see me smile or laugh but its to cover up the pain, sadness and hate i have for my self.
I may have straitened up quite a bit no more crime drinking problems have stopped how ever i replaced drugs and alcohol with cutting.
I will still go thew modes of severe depression, thoughts of suicide so much so i completely breakdown I am in tears crying my eyes out praying for death. I feel so terrible because of the bad things that were done to me and the bad things I used to do. I feel like I don't deserve a women's love I don't deserve friends or the right to prosper in life, those kinds of things are only for good happy people, the only thing I am deserving of is death. cutting can help dull the pain consider it like a crutch as why some choose drinking to escape reality in short its the easy way out but the hardest thing to stop.
saying stuff like if you want to stop, then you will. i s asinine and those who think that should be ashamed.
nor in all cases were will power be enough to make you stop completely. you may stop for a wile but but you may also start right up again down the road. is a long agonizing process that some can never avoid quitting completely.

[shadowmancer 66]

Take it from someone who used to be addicted to it. Cutting is like a drug. Once you start it's hard to stop. Once you start it will mess with your life for a very long time. It leaves nasty scars both mental and physical. You may thinking doing it once or twice is no big deal but it is. The first time is often not the last time you will feel the need to do it again and again. It will get worse and worse with time. the cuts deeper, the need greater, more afflicted area's etc. If you are thinking of cutting please do not do so. It will ruin your life. tell a trusted freind about your problems,right it down in something,hit a pillow, break something. Just dont cut there are better ways. If you are already a cutter try things like flicking your wrist with a rubber band, marking yourself with a red pen in places you cut most, write your feelings down, tell a trusted person about them etc. It might make the emotional pain stop for a bit but it isnt worth the mental pain it will cause later on. Never think that you deserve to hurt yourself. Dont blame everything on yourself. Cause many things in life can not be controlled.The world around you will make you feel like a freak and idiot for who you are. That doesnt meen you are though. there is nothing wrong with being different. There is nothing wrong with being sad,angry,confused etc. Your only human. We all have our ways of coping with things. Just please whatever you do.. Do not cut.. It just makes everything so much worse (excuse any bad grammar and spelling errors)

[~ AcE mAn1Ac ~]

I had this story by myself. I used to cut with no visible purpose. But this not like that, this is more complicated.
I don't cut right now for about half year or so, but still getting strong urges to start once again.
But now I see my situation more clearly. The things that drove me to cutting was anger and dissociation(don't know how to spell it correctly)..
Also it was because I had several dispersonalization events. I had multiply disorder and one of them were more dominant then another.
And that who wasn't dominant tryed to get out and the only way it was possible is by givin body pain to get emotions.
That's why I was cutting, to get myself out..
Now my other me is just unmanageble anger.
Of course I'm not proud at all, because now I'm being left with these scars. Fortunately nobody saw them even tough I'm walking with short sleaves...

[katattack]

I cut. I've been trying to stop for months and I cannot do it. I've thrown my razorblades away, but if I get to stressed I run to the bathroom and grab a razor. I know I need to stop, but it's so hard. I stopped cutting for about a month then started it up again. No one but one knows I cut. My friends have seen my scars but I never told them and they never asked. I know people who cut and ended up going to the school counseler for it, so hiding them<my scars> became my first priority. And I've retreated from my everything back to within myself and prefer to be alone. I've tried the ice cube trick and the rubber bands and it doesn't help. I've tried to write it helps but I throw my journals away afterwards. It only helps me for so long. As does my music. My boyfriend says he may leave if I keep pressing my boundries if i cut a single more time, if theres one more line on my wrist or anywhere else. I've been depressed for so long I feel so alone. What should I do? Its my drug, my release momentarily granted but still, am I fortunes fool? Please?

[katattack]

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Hey, i just joined this website today, i'm kind of stuck and don't know were to turn...
Wondered if any one on here could give me help? :/

Firstly my worlds come crashing down!
I found out my Nana has breast cancer, My dad has liver failure, and my mum doesn't want me no more...
Mum threw me out the other night, and doesnt want me back home, i'm staying at a different friends each night. :/
Social services are putting me in care cause of family life. My boyfriend will leave me if i self harm one more time.
People keep calling me 'EMO'?
School life's harder, because i go to a more 'CHAV' school then anything, and because i look like an emo, and act like an emo, i get singled out, they call me DIFFERENT? ... what am i? ... unormal!? Today someone threatened to stab me, i don't have no friends there because of being different.
I always feel like taking the easy way out and just self harming... if my grandad was here today he'd hold my hand and tell me it's okay, i've got no one now! My arms everyday just become more and more cut, infact at this minute it's so bad, i can't even see my skin colour, all scars, blood, and slits.

Sometime's it's hard to explain my emotions and what i'm going through, every one always seem to take it as a joke, or think i'm just having a laugh. I try to be the real me, but it don't work. SO i have to be fake to make everyone happy!
I'm not afraid of who i am, but then, i'm scared of who i'm trying to be....

PLEASE HELP!

-Lucie.


P.S i hope someone understands what i'm going through on here, and someone can help, you don't realise how much it'll help me. I just don't know how to get through this alone.

You can't do it alone, you need friends new ones, old ones, any one you can really talk to who won't judge you. I may not know what its like to have my nana sick or my papa to have cancer, or your mom doing that. But my parents aren't happy they always fight or so it would seem. And I've always been sort of an outcast, people laugh and make fun of me, call me emo, and it's just because of my appearance, your not different your unique and there jealous and they don't understand so they pick on you to make them feel better, just ignore the jerks. My boyfriend said the same thing to me, he's so dissapointed in me when he saw my wrist, it scares me I don't want to lose him but i can't stop it so i hide it more. To make everyone happy I fake smiles, grins, laughs, happyness, everything about me is a show I put on for the world, so that they can remain in there own little dislussion of the world that im in. I'm alone, try to explain your feelings and emotions to yourself, start a journal if you havent yet, everyone jokes, and laughs, thinking it's all well, well it's not and someone out there knows that, just find them, hey it could even be me, please just be yourself, and stop faking your life through for the sake of everyone else, your killing your origanality, your soul, depressing you even more. -hug-

[S.is.aAwesome]

I still cut myself too wen I feel down because I'm so used to resolving my problems with that.

[KimmySoUlEaTeR theSquirtle]

i think cutting is silly self harming your self it doesnt solve/help the situation

[Chip]

I see where you are coming from, and at one point I agreed with you. Things change. Maybe going back and reading what people will say will clarify why we do what we do. And if not, here's a quick summary. A percentage of us feel powerless against those who make us feel useless. We hate the way they hurt us and we can't stop it. So we find a way to take back our power. To be in charge of who hurts us. Someone we trust an know more than anyone else. Ourselves. Get it? It's okay if you don't. I probably don't understand it completely myself.

[Insane Pie]

It's something that makes you feel like you are in control.

[IamAshley.]

Well, my counsellor told me I do it to make myself feel emotionally numb, as if, cutting myself helps me release all the hurt and pain inside. He also said I do it to punish myself, because of what has happened in my life I don't feel good enough to live, so I cut to prove that to myself, I guess.

[Chip]

This is another reason people cut. Control over their life, punishment for things they feel they could have prevented, to numb the pain they feel, or to feel SOMETHING. But there are more reasons. Some we don't even know our selves.

[cold and alone23]

well i started cutting when i was 12 and sometimes i still do... i have been clean for a few months now but i just found out my boyfriend has been cheating on me and i feel like cutting but im kinda afraid of what might happen between with me and my friend(s) please help :'(

[Chip]

Your friends should be there to catch you if all back onto old habits. If you feel this way, there are lots of methods you can use as a substitution. NOT A RESOLUTION(sorry for the caps but some people can't seen to read clearly). I can't cut unless I am in the shower. For me, it insures I can't constantly cut. Also, I cleanse the spot before and after I cut, plus a clean blade. Try using a rubber band, the Butterfly Effect, or keep yourself busy, as not to let your mind wande to those troublesome thoughts.

[PatchIsaNarwhal]

Ive been a cutter for like... 2 years and ive been clean for about 4 weeks... I've tried suicide twice before... I have seen a counselor but honestly it didn't help. I talk to an online counselor but that doesn't help either. Im not addicted it just helps.. like allot. It gives me a sense of control over my life.
And much to the disappointment of my friends there is really nothing that can be done.. I am to far gone.. I mean i have like a few friends who are in the same place and we are basically support for each other but sometimes it just isnt enough to stop the thoughts.
I have depression and anxiety and i have isolation. None of my depression or anxiety is treated by medication for the simple fact that my family doesn't know.
I hide allot from people and im not planning on letting it out anytime soon. I'm sick of being back stabbed and lied to.

[Chip]

Oh gosh. If you've been doing it for two years, that's kinda an addiction.

[OMGLikeRawrness]

After almost 8 years of cutting at least once a week, I managed to stop 9 weeks ago. That is, until a few minutes ago. I've hid it very well over the years and one of the very few people who know about it is my boyfriend who I promised that I would stop for good and I don't know how to tell him that I've slipped back into it.

[MIKEY.]

I could never self harm, I'm a wimp when it comes to blood (I love gore films though, weird?)

I had an ex-girlfriend who usto cut though, she told me she did it because she liked the pain and adrenaline she'd get from it, it would help her block out any other emotion she had.
Although I can kind of see the logic in that, their are better ways to block out emotions than self harm.

[IamAshley.]

Well I haven't cut in about three months because I promised my boyfriend I'd do my best not to, it's hard.
I did to put myself in pain, I felt like I deserve it, plus it blocked out the mental pain I was feeling.