A Bigender person is a person who feels that their gender is fully male and fully female, or any pair of genders, generally by switching between the two. For some people, the switch is between two very distinct genders, which some consider to be separate "facets" or "personas". For others, the switch is much more fluid, with more grey area.
Transitioning is a difficult idea for many bigenders. Because they have both a male and female gender, assuming they aren't intersexed, then when they're in the gender that matches their body they're as happy with their body as a Cisgender person, but when they're in the gender that doesn't match their body they feel the same dysphoria and need to transition that most Transgender people feel. It's not currently possible to create a body that changes from male to female at will, so it can be difficult for a bigender person to achieve a presentation or body that allows them to be comfortable in both genders. .
I haven't looked very far into it yet, but a couple of posts I read made by some bigender people remind me a lot of my own thoughts, thoughts I've had since I can remember, but thoughts that come and go in phases. Such as when I was younger, a couple of times I dressed as boy-ish as possible, and hoped strangers would mistake me for a boy. I even lied about my gender on the internet for a long time, and during that time became furious with the people around me in real life when they referred to me as 'her' or 'she'. Recently I've been going back into that 'phase', since my mum bought me a chest binding vest to help with crossplaying at anime conventions. I feel really comfortable when wearing it, and even used cosplay as an excuse to wear it out on two occasions. I don't WANT to take it off once I have it on.
I also remember that when I was younger and playing games with my friends, I would usually demand to play the male characters. I do the same thing with cosplay now. I'd rather be the guys. I refer to myself right now as 'female'. If someone calls me a girl/woman/lady, I get furious. I just hate it. And recently I've thought the only things tying me to being female is the fact that I want a baby, and I...like my breasts, despite enjoying being able to hide them. I also love wearing dresses, and having long hair...but even if I was a guy I wouldn't change that. <<<That's the part I thought people would find weird. XD
Also, as many of my posts on this site have made clear, I don't like gender roles. At all. I hate being expected to act a certain way because I'm female, and I believe nothing would change for me if I was male. I hate that guys 'can't' fight me back. I'm really competitive with them, and have always felt I NEED to prove my strength, especially to guys. I've never wanted to conform to just being a 'girl'.
I'm not going to go ahead and label myself because A) I haven't looked into it enough yet. and B ) Just going ahead and calling myself bigender when I have only just heard the word literally less than an hour ago seems kind of ignorant.
But, honestly, whether it's my stupid brain trying to label myself already, or maybe a feeling of relief, I haven't been able to stop shaking since I found out about it. -.-U I'm almost scared to bring this up to my mum tomorrow.
Any way...This topic isn't supposed to be about me.
Have you ever felt this way?
Have you even heard of this before?