Hi...
I've got a girlfriend for over a month now, I don't love her at all, don't care for her at all, just nothing. That's how it's been in the my last few relationships.
I'm just emotionless, I grew up like that because of what happened at home and at school and just everywhere I've to.
Also still depressed, for the last few years now [over 5].
There was just one girl I loved, and I mean, really really loved. it didn't end well, she was way too far, I was way too far, it was impossible.
Now I'm looking at my friends and people around me who have a relationship going on, seems like they're really enjoying it.. I'm a bit jealous, I think..
My current girlfriend says I'm her first true love, tho as I said, I feel nothing towards her and I'm with her only because I want someone to talk to or just for a physical relationship.
I know I should break up with her but I just want to have someone like everyone else..
What should I do? what should I look for?