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The pain of not being loved


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[note im terrible at poems so i writh story's]

This is my story the story of my love for one person,

For 5 years i loved one girl who whas in my class but i never told her i whas afraid that she would lought and make fun of me like the others did back then i whas afraid of being rejected!

people kept telling me that she liked me but my fear makes me believe she ditn't and that drove me insane my heart whas filt with both love for her wich whas nice and pain the pain of not being loved by her aswell

and for 2 years this went on after that she went to a other school leaving me alone and that realy hurt me it made me feel lonley emotional and unwanted by everyone.

so in the following to years i did things wich i should have never done
for example i started useing weed and hasj it started just to try it but i ended u hooked and over the time i started useing alcohol to

but the bad thing about it al is that i first used it for fun but ended up using it to feel happy and thats were i went wrong now im hooked and unable to stop for long terms

but 2 years after she left school and i did those stuff i got contact with her through a friend so me and her talkt for a few months on msn
and what do you know we ended up being bf and gf i whas in heaven
and for all the time that we were together i havent used any drugs or anything so things were going great!

but after a while she broke up with me becouse whe still liked her ex i felt so bad about myself so bad i never felt so bad before its realy wierd why i havent killed myself back then i kept my feelings to myself and never showed anyone that i has devistated insted i started useing alot and i mean alot! of drugs to feel happy it helpt for a few days but after it just made me feel more bad about myself

so i stopt the drugs for a while but it ditnt work after a while the pain got to much and i started smoking weed again it works now becouse i dont use it to much and i dont drink to much otherwise it will make me feel bad again but for now its working

but anyway i still love her with all my heart! i would die for her and she know's that! but she doenst want to be more then friends and for now i still life in The pain of not being loved!
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all coments are welcome even bad ones :wink:
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I am sorry that things didn't work out between you two. What a shame

But at least you got some time with her than nothing. At least now she knows that you love her with all youre heart. And not being hidden in the shadows like some monster of the night. Be thankful. Be very thankful
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yeah your right smile.gif it might broke my heart but she knows i love her and thats what count for me
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Dude your story is close to mine,I swear that my eyes teared :Cry:
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yeah i know the feeling its terrible isnt it but no wories everything wil someday turn out fine smile.gif at least thats what ppl tell me ill just have to w8 and see but for now you are not alone we are all here to help :-)
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