I was in love with chris but there are things he has asked of me that i was not comfortable with. , i cheated on him. this is my humiliation . i do not love chris. I love Wayne Bryan Kirby. i have done wrong to both of these men. and i am ashamed. i am hurting not only them but myself as well. i do love Wayne with all my heart. the only reason i have told chris i loved him is so he would stay on this game and so he would not do anything to harm himself. i am verry wrong for what i have done and i hope i get sent to hell. I do love Wayne and only him. I met him before i left for ycp. i never thought i would be lucky enough to find someone like him. i am too tired to lie. i want the truth out . I have cheated . i feel horriable . i can tell you i will not do it again if it brings this pain. i want to kill myself right now and plan to in three hours, but im talking to Wayne at the moment to explain. he is verry hurt and i dont blame him. i do love him. and i hope the least i can do is get him to tell me he loves me before i take my life
good bye ec, good bye chris . i am sorry to everyone