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My Corner: Past, Present, And Emotion. (Plz Read)
#1
Posted 29 September 2014 - 05:15 AM
So it might be hard for me to communicate. Anyway..
It begins: Since middle school I always had a strong will. I was raised believing that anything is possible. And I could achieve anything if I tried hard enough. And I did. Coming out of middle school I felt more mature then other kids. (Mostly because of my Dad. He was strict but yet he loved us. Took me and my siblings as his own. Even after my half brother was born. He's down to earth and has a very realistic opinion on everything. And he's a great teacher. If it was up to me I'd make him a saint. More on why later. Let's stay on topic here..) So it's no surprise I'm a lot like my stepdad. (I never met my real dad, he left when I was five.) With a strong moral foundation, I felt and behaved more mature than most kids. I was well behaved as well. Going into high school I had everything. Money, was popular, and even feared. Honestly I became cocky. I wanted to be liked by everyone. And I knew who I was pretending to be was not the real me and was wrong. But all that began to change.
Reality Check:
Then I met her. We became friends. Had closest bond I ever had with a girl.
Then she was gone. No word nothing, poof. Just like that. She came back. We talked and argued. She said I was too full of myself and was never going to change. Then she left. I never even got to tell her that.. I loved her. I haven't seen her to this day. I changed. Completely. I miss her to this day and I think about her at least once every day. People judged me, hated me for a while and I became sensitive. Self conscious too. Thing about it is tho, I feel like I lost a part of myself. I dropped out of school. Got a job. Lost it. Got another job. Lost that.
Present Day:
Now, no friends and barely a family fortunately intact.. I return once again a senior to finish my last semester of class & Graduate!! I can get upset at times and doubt things. The few relationships I've had have dropped cold and because of it it's hard for me to trust people. I'm really honest and like to help people. I love animals and music. Also the type of music I listen to at any given moment reflects how I feel at the time. Is it strange? Also I can go from happy to sit and cry upset in a second. I'm slim for my age but feel as skinny and frail as Curt Cobain. What can I do to balance my emotions and get back into life?
#2
Posted 29 September 2014 - 04:46 PM
Though we've never met, I can guess that you don't have aspbergers. Am I right to say that maybe you are kind of bitter, maybe an asshole to people at times, and you don't fit in anywhere?
Nice to meet you by the way, I'm Okano.
#3
Posted 30 September 2014 - 06:02 PM
Nice meeting you btw
#4
Posted 30 September 2014 - 08:03 PM
You should get 2nd, 3rd, 4th, and even 5th opinions before you resign yourself to being diagnosed as anything. Remember that in the US there is a diagnosis for anything and everything. The diagnosing criteria commonly referred to is the "DSM V" In the past it has been written by special interest people which were supposedly elected. Some of the representatives who wrote previous DSM such as the "DSM IV" were representatives of drug companies. Just keep that in mind.Hey Okano, yea I used to be kinda bitter. And stuff. And your right, it is hard for me to fit in anywhere. Ah I thought I was the only one who's experienced this. And I'm so relieved to hear I might not have aspergers!! Lol
Nice meeting you btw
Anyway, the most important thing you should take from this is this...don't be something you're not. Be you. Yeah you'll probably be very different from everyone else, but that's when conversation happens and people will like you for it.
#5
Posted 02 October 2014 - 12:53 AM
#6
Posted 02 October 2014 - 08:09 PM
Hey luisman I'm torturedninja. I relate a lot of your story to my life. I think that you changing had a positive aspect on your life. If you do meet someone you become close to, don't let them change you back into someone you're not. And I'm with okano- being yourself is the most important thing you can get out of this. Good luck in the future, bro!
#7
Posted 06 October 2014 - 10:41 PM
#8
Posted 30 October 2014 - 10:01 PM
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Sup.
How are you doing? Has anything changed? What have you thought about?
#9
Posted 30 October 2014 - 10:09 PM
And my bros health took a dive.
He had his gallbladder removed and it was discovered that he had fluid in his lungs. He is being kept asleep for a day.
And I've had a lot of thoughts on life recently.
#10
Posted 31 October 2014 - 10:27 AM
Yea. I met someone.
And my bros health took a dive.
He had his gallbladder removed and it was discovered that he had fluid in his lungs. He is being kept asleep for a day.
And I've had a lot of thoughts on life recently.
I'm sorry about your brother. What is his name?
Thoughts on life like what?
#11
Posted 31 October 2014 - 08:23 PM
He died today. On holloween.
I want to talk to you when your online if that's ok.
:/ your the only one I talk to.
#12
Posted 06 November 2014 - 07:54 PM
I guess I'm a loser. I'm alone, angry, scared, anxious and tired. No one really cares.
#13
Posted 05 August 2015 - 10:28 AM
Also tagged with one or more of these keywords: Depressed, Sensitive, Past, Heartbreak
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